Cold, very cold

I don’t know what I want out of the net when I am in this mood. I just want someone to lean on. I went to chat rooms a while back, but I am not interested in chatting to people in chat rooms. I don’t want to play games. I guess the net is the only place I see fit to be right now, but there is no point in trying to satisfy my want or need for someone to… reach out to. I want to give, but I have nothing. I want to hold someone but there is nobody. Its like being in limbo. Not smiling not crying not speaking not listening. Not awake, but certainly not asleep. Just nothing and more, but not more negative, more as in I am here, I am feeling (just about), I’m breathing and not going to stop.

My windows media player just randomed in some of my favourite songs from  my playlist in a row. That’s funny! It really is, cos that’s what I call lucky! But really I made the list from my favourite songs!

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easily pleased!