Talking about a revolution?!?! Not me guv!

Just thinking about how alone I am… I am not lonely, cos I have a lot to do, so feeling lonely doesn’t really come onto the cards all that often. But feeling like nobody needs you is a nasty feeling. In this situation I would rather that nobody needed me and I didn’t need anybody rather than being dependant on some else, even when the person that I am dependant on is my own mother. Of course better than that is  needing other people and being needed by other people, or even better… wanted. I’m not a nasty person. I’m not especially dirt, I have uses. So why doesn’t anyone need me? Seems like nobody wants me.

Oh well!

Still haven’t managed to find a job so nothing new or exciting in my life! Was thinking of swimming this evening, the pool is open until 11pm and its about 7.30. I don’t know whether I will make it though, its ice cold out there!

I have to take up more hobbies. My dad suggested learning html, I suggested Auto CAD. Both sound pretty boring, but if I think f learning them as a part time job and do set hours everyday… well we’ll have to see! I know! I know! I have said this I will learn stuff before, but this time… maybe, just maybe.