What's going on?

So, today has been pretty uneventful. I got the house to myself tho, which is nice, but really quiet. And around Xmas time is that what you want? Well yeah I guess, if you are me. I do enjoy my quiet time. I am used to thinking a lot, I do too much thinking I was thinking the other night. Last night in fact. Last night when I went to bed at about 10.30 in the evening and ended up going to sleep at about 3am. Which would have been fine apart from the being bored stiff!!! What is it about trying to sleep? When I really wan to sleep I cant but I can quite happily fall asleep on the way to the next town while on a bus or a train. Trains are the best, I am often find myself waking up bleary eyed with people looking at me and laughing, only to realise about an hour later that I have dried saliva all down me, and that explains why the rain had collected at the bottom of the window! What a fool!

I tried all things that I thought would help but in the end I think I just stressed myself out by thinking about it too much. I often write my thoughts out, similarly to this. I often stumble across notes I have written years ago. Some of them are quite depressing. Some from near the time my girlfriend broke up with me. But when I find those I throw them away. I found one with a dream written on it once. I was dreaming about being the Terminator, which was great! Then something about orange squash and having to make a perfect one in a lab, which I couldn't do cos I kept drinking it and messing it up. Sounds like me! I try not to mess things up, but there is sooo much to screw up in the world, I am just getting in early so I can fit all of the failures in one lifetime!

So... I'll keep you posted on what I fuck up in the future!

p.s. that spell checker is funny, if there is something obviouslyw rong, just use your imagination